Nutshell Draft

People hide their identity all the time. I believe when people are applying for a job or at a work place they have to hide their identity because society can’t cope with peoples true self. For example when applying to a job you can’t always show your true self because the person who plans on hiring you might not like your true self and can not hire you if they don’t want too. That’s why it would be best to show your false self to cover who you are. It’s kind of messed who that we was people have to do this sometimes but that’s just the way society is today. Hiding your identity can be good or bad for a person all depending on the particular circumstances. For example it can be bad because when looking for friends you won’t find the group of people that you fit in with because your hiding your identity. However, it can be good too because hiding your identity can keep you from getting hurt. A prime example of this is when Jussie Smollett got hurt because of his identity. If he had hide who he was this probably would not have happen. It is just ashame that he would have to do that in order to stay safe. Society loses so much when people feels as though they have to hide who they are as a person. Society loses originality and all the good ideas people could have but we miss out on this because people are probably to afraid to share what their thinking. However if people didn’t cover who they are, society has so much to gain from it. People wouldn’t feel scared to share their ideas and who they are as a person because everyone would be treated equal and it wouldn’t matter who you are as a person. To protect the civil rights of people facing societal demands to cover we as a society have to come together and inform everyone about this issue. The more aware people are the better it would be to stop this social demand society has.

 

 

People hide their identity all the time. I believe when people are applying for a job or at a work place they have to hide their identity because society can’t cope with peoples true self. For example when applying to a job you can’t always show your true self because the person who plans on hiring you might not like your true self and can not hire you if they don’t want too. That’s why it would be best to show your false self to cover who you are. It’s kind of messed who that we was people have to do this sometimes but that’s just the way society is today. Hiding your identity can be good or bad for a person all depending on the particular circumstances. For example it can be bad because when looking for friends you won’t find the group of people that you fit in with because your hiding your identity. However, it can be good too because hiding your identity can keep you from getting hurt. A prime example of this is when Jussie  got hurt because of his identity. If he had hide who he was this probably would not have happen. It is just that he would have to do that in order to stay safe. Society loses so much when people feels as though they have to hide who they are as a person. Society loses originality and all the good ideas people could have but it it.

The nutshell

Identity is something that is intrinsic to any human being. A unique collection of memories, relationships, and, physical space. A mosaic I that lives within all of us, but what if some the piece of that mosaic where shunned. I have orange in it would somehow make the mosaic less likely to go on display or get the attention it deserves. Despite not making any sense it happens a lot of the real world to real people inflicted by other real people. For example, a lot of the time people will be told not to mention the fact that they’re gay within a job interview. Now, in all honesty, the fact that you’re gay should not come up during any job interview. Let alone be one of the many criteria you’re judged by during the hiring process. As a large population, especially within the United States, still views these types of topics and It’s relatively unknown how they will respond to such topics. Now the active withholding this information with changing you are perceived to others is Covering. However, says it best Kenji Yoshino “Everyone covers. To cover is to down a disfavored to fit into the mainstream.”. So, for example in the statement I said earlier about being gay covering for being gay would be portraying yourself as straight. So, let’s say you’re in the company showers and the guy is talking about Celebrities that people think are attractive and everyone’s throwing out like Scarlett Kohansson, Kim Carasson, and, Jegan Fox. You really want to say Jeff Goldbloom but you know that you’ll be ostracized for saying that, so you say Jessica Elba. It basically amounts to pre-emptive reaction to social ostracization.

 

Hiding has been part of humanity even humans. Active withdrawing yourself too secluded area to be sheltered from threats is something that all life does. However, like all survival strategy strategies, it’s only effective in the right place at the right time. Don’t conserve water in the rainforest or go to Antarctica naked. And you shouldn’t have to hide in a society that should expect you for who you are.  Covering, just like ill-applied survival, can result in serious damage to one’s health and sanity. One can become disconcerting with themselves and society. Hatred can be a natural response to pent up emotions especially to those who are the source. “The True Self is associated with human spontaneity and authenticity: “Only the True Self can be creative and only the True Self can feel real.” The False Self, in contrast, gives an individual a sense of being unreal, a sense of futility. It mediates the relationship between the True Self and the world.” No matter what in someone’s life not being able to be who you are can be maddening. It Leads to a disregard of those who put you down and not in their self-interest. Such as saying things that take their cause for social recognition back years. It is almost paradoxical as those who wish to bring their authorization to an end must be stronger than their oppressors.

 

Yoshino Paper – Rough

Ryan DeLuca

Feb 2nd, 2019

Eng 123

Dr. Drown

I was introduced to a new concept that I had never heard of, that new concept is called “covering”. What does covering mean? Covering is when you hide your true self in order to blend in or please the people around you or to blend in. Who introduced me into this new concept? His name is Kenji Yoshino, he is “…the Chief Justice Earl Warren Professor of connotational Law at New York University.” Yoshino is a gay Asian American who has been studying constructional law for a long time and is involved in civil rights, in his reading he talks about Race, Gender, and Sexual Orientation Civil rights. Yoshino brings in another person who talks about the difference between your “True self” and your “False self” as well as the consequences a person may experience using their “False self” for too long.

One question that was given to me to help me think about these concepts was, “What circumstances would a person want or need to cover?” I said, the kinds of circumstances a person would want to or would need to cover would be if you were going to a job interview you would want to cover your bad traits and only show your best self, right? Then I thought of another circumstance, say you are gay and live in a very Christian society and people in the community are very radical about people that go against the bible, you would want to “Cover” your gay identity in order to avoid being beaten or killed in extreme cases.

Another question that I was given to think with was, “What might hiding a part of their identity do to and or for a person?” In the two circumstances.” I stated about the job interview and the gay teen part of the christen community. Yoshino in the middle of his article brought in a man named D.W Winnicott. Winnicott explores the ideas about “True self” and “False self” and what it might do to a person over time. Winnicott says, “The true self is the self that gives an individual the feeling of being real, which is more than existing; it is finding a way to exist as oneself and to relate to object as oneself and to have self into which to retreat for relaxation.” In my own terms, the “True self” is the real you the you that has that bad trait that you are trying to cover from your soon to be boss or the trait you are trying to hide from your Christian community. Winnicott talks about what the “False Self” is, “The False Self, in contrast, gives an individual a sense of being unreal, a sense of futility. It mediates the relationship between the True Self and the world.” The “False Self” is what protects the “True self” from rejection, pain, and sorrow. To some people, the “False self” is what is keeping them alive, but the consequences of using the “False self” for too long may cause the person to explode in anger or severe depression resulting in possible death.

The last question that I was given to answer is, “What might a society gain and lose when a person or type of person covers a part of their identity?” A society may gain happiness, from certain persons covering, if you are a usually a bitter human being but you decide to cover the fact that you are a bitter human the community may gain happiness from he or she is covering their bitterness. But, on the other hand, a society may lose from a person covering is diversity and the many cultures we have in the United States and around the world.

Identity Essay

Ryan DeLuca

Jan 26, 2019

Eng 123

Dr. Drown

Final

Identities, what is there purpose?

In class one day I was given a couple of questions to throw around in my head and to some critical thinking with. They were, what is an identity? What do Identities do for us? And Why do they matter? These questions were very difficult to answer because they are the type of question you have to answer from a personal prospective for example I think an identity is something you create and want to be known by.

While I was reading “A toast story” by John Gravis my initial thought was, “what does this have to do with Identities?” Once I read more into the story it got to a part of the story that started to make sense to me as to why this story was chosen. The story started getting into where the “fancy toast craze” came from, the origins of the “fancy toast craze” came from a small cramped former dog groomer made coffee shop. The owner of the coffee shop is a woman with a story to tell, her name is Carrelli, her story started when she was a freshman in college, she had been burning through friends and places to stay because she suffers from a rare disorder called “schizoaffective disorder, a condition that combines symptoms of schizophrenia and bipolarity.” Her disorder seemed to be difficult to live with, but she didn’t let it bother but it did bother some of the people around her. This was the main cause of her misfortune with some of her friends and landlords because of her disorder she was “susceptible to both psychotic episodes and bouts of either mania or depression”. Her land lords and friends thought she was too much to deal with so they sadly left her by herself.

Once she finished college she had enough of being left in the dark by her small group of friends and getting kicked out by her landlords, so she started making a network of people she could become acquainted with, once she moved to china beach California and worked at a coffee shop for a little bit before starting her network. He thought was if she had a big group of friends she wouldn’t be alone if a few of her friends left her. She got the idea of opening her own coffee shop from her boss and an old man who sunbathed in the same spot on china beach every day, she had made a friendship with this old man. After she finished working for the coffee shop she started making her presence known by just walking up to people and saying hi and introducing herself, she would eventually gather enough people she could count on and would borrow money to buy what used to be a former dog groomer to turn into her coffee shop. “She called the shop Trouble, in honor of all the people who helped her when she was in trouble.” Her shop became her identity in this small area of China beach California, and it was for a good reason she made this shop her identity, she stuck to the same schedule because she wanted people in her area to be able to recognize her and help her if she was having one of her episodes. People would recognize her as the owner of Trouble coffee and coconut club.

Her menu items seem peculiar but have meaning behind them as well. She serves coconuts, fresh squeezed grapefruit juice that she named yoko because of the high source of vitamin C, the toast on her menu represents comfort, toast represents comfort because it reminds her of home her mom used to make toast for her as a kid. Her coffee represents communication and speed because when you drink coffee your brains speed increases and you have better communication. The coconuts on her menu represent survival because this is what she lived off of when she was having a hard time with money, she also lived off of grapefruit juice and coconuts for about three years.

Carrelli’s made an identity for herself, her identity is the owner of Trouble, this may have saved her life and made her able to have something to keep her whole. The same goes for other people, identities make us whole they make us who we are, and everyone can have many different identities such as someone can be a father or mother at home but then at work they are the head of their department. The identities we give ourselves are given for a purpose, we have no idea of who we are if we don’t give ourselves an identity.

One example about identity I want to write about is race, in the article it stated that during the industrial age in Americas life, skin color became a big factor in your identity. Blacks were seen to be lesser and lower on the totem pole than people of white color. This type of identity during this time period was very dangerous, because black people were slaves during this time. This is a good example of how other people put labels on other people and make their identities a reality. With this example blacks were enslaved, they were beaten and worked to death, during this time white people were taught the belief that blacks are lesser to whites and that’s why they worked them to death without pay, in some circumstances they weren’t allowed to marry either.

Another concept about identities is that they change with every situation you are in or where ever you are. For example, when a professor is at school their identity at school is a professor or teacher, and then when the professor goes home they become a husband or wife or even mother and father. Your identity changes with every situation or task you are doing, a different task from mother, father or teacher would be when you go to the mall you become a shopper and to other shoppers in the mall you are an ignorant ass hole and the cycle continues.

Identities are important to us they give us meaning in life they make us who we are they allow us to identify other people around us, they allow us to be sentimental towards the people we consider worthy of our most important identities, the friend identity, the significant other identity and even the mother and father identity. Even though identities are something humans made up just like we made up daylight savings time, they serve a purpose we just cant live without.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Works Cited

 

Gravois, John. “How Did Toast Become the Latest Artisanal Food Craze?” Pacific Standard, Pacific Standard, 13 Jan. 2014, psmag.com/social-justice/toast-story-latest-artisanal-food-craze-72676.

Illing, Sean. “Why Identity Is a Lie We Can’t Live Without.” Vox.com, Vox Media, 2 Nov. 2018, www.vox.com/identities/2018/11/1/17980384/identity-politics-kwame-anthony-appiah.

Paper #1 Revised

What is an identity? Each person that is asked that question may assume different things. Legal identities are a major indicator for knowing who people are, a person’s personality, social media accounts or what they think of themselves. Kwame Appiah’s “Why identity is a lie we can’t live without” and John Gravois’s “A Toast Story” helps us answer three general questions about identities; What is an identity? What do they do for us? Why do they matter?

In Gravois’s “A Toast Story,” he begins conversation by sharing his discovery about the popularity of toast in San Francisco. He then begins talking about Giulietta Carrelli and her schizophrenic like condition which causes her to have episodes and forget where she is and won’t know what’s going on. We first learn about her personality when he mentions the relationships she lost and her landlords kicking her out. She was able to maintain a job at a coffee shop for three years, eventually the owner gave her a small fortune and she was able to open her own shop.  When she opened Trouble she began talking to every person that walked in the door. Her goal was to create a network of people who know who she is so they will recognize her. She wears the same clothes everyday so people will see her and identify her as the owner of Trouble. This is the first key concept that starts to answer the three key questions.

To Guilettia, her identity does matter, immensely. She depends on people to recognize her on the streets when she’s having an episode. To other people, Carelli’s identity lets other people who know her, help her. It also gives them the opportunity to start a conversation with her when someone sees her because she is known as the owner or trouble. “Trouble is a tool for keeping her alive. I’m trying to stay connected to the self, she says. Like one of her old notebooks, the shop has become an externalized set of reference points, an index of Carrelli’s identity. It is her greatest source of dependable routine and her most powerful means of expanding her network of friends and acquaintances, which extends now to the shop’s entire clientele,”  (Gravois).

In Appiah’s “Why an identity is a lie we can’t live without,” he interviews Sean Illing about identities and his book. In the interview they talk about the different identities people are given based on what they look and act like. The first identity being political, people will always assume your choices are based on what side your on, which is inescapable. They also talk about people’s sexual preference as an identity. People have different preferences based on who they want to date or who they want to be, this identity is also categorized by people. The whole point of the interview is to find out why an identity is a lie we can’t live without. An identity can be a lie because no one person has only one identity, everyone has different identities to different people in different places. Also, people can assume someone’s identity based on what people have heard, which also shows the point that an identity a lie we can’t live without because that person doesn’t know their true identity but they still will believe they do.

The most major was people are categorized is based by their race/ ethnicity identity, “If you allow your identity to be totally shaped by your opposition to a dominant culture, as many racial group have done because of the history of racism and xenophobia, you can become locked into that minority status. The first time a group becomes conscious of itself as an important social group, it is because they realize that they’re all being subjected to something.” Ultimately, classifying other people shows your true identity and what you think about them.

When Illing was asked why he called an identity a lie in the lie his response was, “There’s something misleading or mistaken about the pictures that underlie these identities and yet they bind us together in spite of that. They do bring people together, as well as divide people, and I think that the lies, the untruths, are often a very important part of how they work. They’re important to how people are held together,” (Illing).  What he means by this is everyone will categorize people into what they think, or what they know you are; It’s second nature to do this.

Both of these articles provide necessary information to answer the three most important questions. Once we can understand ourselves and other people, then do we really get to understand someone’s true identity. Reading these articles were helpful to understand how we answer the questions and how we think about ourselves and other people around us. It shows us why then matter and how other people can be affected by what our identities are.

 

Identity 2: Electric Boogaloo™

Identity is a weird thing. It is totally exclusive to its owner. Just like a fingerprint, they are shaped by a kaleidoscope of factors. Which seems kind of random at times, like why should seeing a scary movie about boats as a child make me scared of them for 10 years. This random event made me miss out on things that would have Further developed my identity, like seeing Murder Boat XIV: Return of Bob the Blood Boat™ with my friends or going on that boat trip with my family. So, what has my identity done? On that note why do they even matter? Why can’t we all be biological machines completely devoid of any sense of identity? It is our anchor. In a turbulent sea that is life, an identity grounds us somewhere. From there we can branch out and develop relationships with other people. Soon entire groups of people kept afloat in the sea of life altogether.

 

So, what is an identity? In my opinion, it is the sum total of all your experiences, relationships, likes, dislikes, thoughts, origins, and, surroundings. Now it is entirely random which one will have the greatest effect on your personality and most of the time it varies from person to person. Mostly it matters on what they take away from these pieces that make their identity. So, for instance, if someone really values being the type of person who likes the color aquamarine and builds their life around it. It will affect what kind of experiences they have, how they interpret their origins, and, what they dislike. It’s so hard to say what has an exact effect on how someone identifies themselves. Because someone could just choose to disengage with a massive part of their identity like how they hate their origin, but is that really disengaging from that part of their identity or increasing how much of their identity that is define by it? Does this mean that we can shape a lot of our personality or does this mean that our personalities shape us? there’s a quote from why identity is a lie that really works with this. “I think we run into dangers when we allow our identities to push us around, to make us do things we don’t actually want to do or need to do, just because we feel that’s what a black person would do or that’s what a white person would do or that’s what a Republican person would do. These identities can make all sorts of demands on us, and often that can overwhelm who we are as unique individuals.” (Illing). The question oppose is interesting who’s in control. The individual or the factors that make us up?

 

Ok so, what do identities do for us. Well, I said previously I think they anchor us to the world. It’s a survival strategy essentially. If we have a fear of losing ourselves it makes us more invested in our lives. It gives us a reason to feel emotions and to change things. So, we have this cumulative process of building on ourselves by which we can extrapolate purpose. Therefore, gets me anything losing sense of it could be so detrimental to people. Like in the article called Toast where the subject of the article, Giulietta Carrelli, has a medical condition that causes her to have episodes in which she can lose the sense of herself. “When an episode comes on, she describes the experience as a kind of death: Sometimes she gets stuck hallucinating, hearing voices, unable to move or see clearly; other times she has wandered the city aimlessly. “Sometimes I don’t recognize myself,” she says. “I get so much disorganized brain activity, I would get lost for 12 hours.” (Gravois) Identity are not just random tidbits about someone or accidental coincidences growing up. We are our identities and they drive us and Losing that is detrimental. Even when Carrelli losses her self for a couple hour it can uproot anything she has build up until then. It shows How vital identity is too our survival.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Work cited

Illing, Sean. “Why Identity Is a Lie We Can’t Live Without.” Vox.com, Vox Media, 2 Nov. 2018, www.vox.com/identities/2018/11/1/17980384/identity-politics-kwame-anthony-appiah.

 

Gravois, John. “How Did Toast Become the Latest Artisanal Food Craze?” Pacific Standard, Pacific Standard, 13 Jan. 2014, psmag.com/social-justice/toast-story-latest-artisanal-food-craze-72676.

 

 

paper #1

What is an identity? Each person that is asked that question may assume different things such as, a legal identity, a personality, or what they think of themselves. Kwame Appiah’s “Why identity is a lie we can’t live without” and John Gravois’s “A Toast Story” helps us answer three general questions about identities, What is an identity? What do they do for us? Why do they matter?

 

In Gravois’s “A Toast Story,” he leads the conversation by talking about the start of the popularity of toast in San Francisco. He then begins talking about Giulietta Carrelli and her schizophrenic condition. She has episodes where she will forget where she is and won’t know what’s going on.  When she opened trouble she began talking to every person that walked in the door to create a network of people who know who she is and can recognize her. She wears the same clothes everyday so people will see her and identify her as the owner of Trouble. This is the first key concept that starts to answer the three key questions.

 

To Guilettia, her identity does matter immensely because she depends on people to recognize her on the streets when she’s having an episode. To other people, Carelli’s identity lets other people who know her, help her. It also gives them the opportunity to start a conversation with her when someone sees her because she will always be known as the owner or trouble and whether or not people know her personally or from a news article, it allows people to get to know and understand her identity. “Trouble is a tool for keeping her alive. I’m trying to stay connected to the self, she says. Like one of her old notebooks, the shop has become an externalized set of reference points, an index of Carrelli’s identity. It is her greatest source of dependable routine and her most powerful means of expanding her network of friends and acquaintances, which extends now to the shop’s entire clientele.”

 

In Appiah’s “Why an identity is a lie we can’t live without” he interviews Sean Illing about identities. They talk about all the different kinds of identities have. First being political, people will always assume your choices are based on what side your on, which is inescapable. They also talk about people’s sexual preference as an identity. People can identify as any way they want to but people will also think of this when they speak of you, this topic is also inescapable. The whole point of the interview is to find out why an identity is a lie we can’t live without. An identity can be a lie because no one person has only one identity, everyone has different identities to different people and in different places. Also, people can assume your identity based on what people have heard, which is also a lie because then that person doesn’t know the real you.

 

People will also categorize someone by their race/ ethnicity, “If you allow your identity to be totally shaped by your opposition to a dominant culture, as many racial group have done because of the history of racism and xenophobia, you can become locked into that minority status. The first time a group becomes conscious of itself as an important social group, it is because they realize that they’re all being subjected to something.” Ultimately, classifying other people shows your true identity and what you think about them.

 

When Illing was asked why he called an identity a lie in the lie his response was, “There’s something misleading or mistaken about the pictures that underlie these identities and yet they bind us together in spite of that. They do bring people together, as well as divide people, and i think that the lies, the untruths, are often a very important part of how they work. They’re important to how people are held together. What he means by this is everyone will categorize people into what they think, or what they know you are; It’s second nature to do this.

 

Both of these articles provide necessary information to answer the three most important questions. Once we can understand ourselves and other people, then do we really get to understand someone’s true identity to you and to other people. Reading these articles were helpful to understand how we answer the questions and how we think about ourselves and other people around us. It shows us why then matter and how other people can be affected by what our identities are.

Essay 1 prewrite (write all plans/ words down on page)

Intro:

Every single person in the world no matter race, skin color, or origin all share something in common; we all have identities. Identities are essential to our salvation as human beings. They separate us from the other 7.5 billion people who inhabit the world with us. Identities make us unique from other people but they change based off of many things including location, the government, sports, jobs, etc…

 

Include  

  • More details
  • Be more specific
  • Go more in depth on what it means to have an identity
  • Really get the reader engaged (better hook)
  • Put in more statistical relevance to make sure this topic is relevant to all people.

 

Body Paragraph(s):

Identities differentiate us from the general population some in good ways and others in bad ways. An example of a bad way would be the Unabomber. A name created for a criminal who terrorized the United States for decades  by sending packages to high authority figures that contained makeshift bombs inside. His real identity Ted Kaczynski. But do people really get to shape their own identities? At first no, your parents name you when you are a child but after that initial first identity given to you by your parents you are given another one to you by the government known as your social security number. While you’re growing up you are given common identities based off your strengths and weaknesses observed by your peers. Some include nerd, geek, genius, freak, jock, and so on. But really you can only shape the way your identities are given to you.

 

Include

  • Quotes: “… we have multiple identities and multiple points of contact with other people, and it’s almost never true that there is no shared ground at all.” (Appiah)
    • “IF YOU DEFINE YOURSELF THROUGH THE ACT OF OPPOSITION, THEN YOU’RE LETTING THE OPPRESSORS SET THE TERMS” (Appiah)
    • “If you allow your identity to be totally shaped by your opposition to a dominant culture, as many racial groups have done because of the history of racism and xenophobia, you can become locked into that minority status. The first time a group becomes conscious of itself as an important social group, it is because they realize that they’re all being subjected to something. But if you define yourself through the act of opposition, then you’re letting the oppressors set the terms.” (Appiah)
    • This seems like an important point, because I think we tend to think of identity as intractable or fixed, and so we get locked into these labels and they come to define us and define our conflicts with one another. But as you say, we have multiple identities and multiple points of contact with other people, and it’s almost never true that there is no shared ground at all.” (Illing)
  • Explain the quotes and the relevance to the articles/identity
  • Add more depth / make sure it relates to context / peoples lives
  • Use more transition words
  • Keep reader engaged the whole time
  • STAY ON TOPIC

Conclusion:

  • Maintain the flow throughout the article
  • Keep reader engaged / relevance to identity
  • Reference conclusion section in TS/IS and in the Little Seagull Handbook

What is an identity? Paper First Draft

Identity is a weird thing. It is totally exclusive to its owner. Just like a fingerprint, they are shaped by a kaleidoscope of factors. Which seems kind of random at times, like why should seeing a scary movie about boats as a child make me scared of them for 10 years. This random event made me miss out on things that would have Further developed my identity, like seeing Murder Boat XIV: Return of Bob the Blood Boat™ with my friends or going on that boat trip with my family. So, what has my identity done? On that note why do they even matter? Why can’t we all be biological machines completely devoid of any sense of identity? It is our anchor. In a turbulent sea that is life, an identity grounds us somewhere. From there we can branch out and develop relationships with other people. Soon entire groups of people kept afloat in the sea of life altogether.

 

So, what is an identity? In my opinion, it is some total of all your experiences, relationships, likes, dislikes, thoughts, origins, and, surroundings. Now it is entirely random which one will have the greatest effect on your personality and most of the time it varies from person to person. Mostly it matters on what they take away from these pieces that make their identity. So, for instance, if someone really values being the type of person who likes the color aquamarine and builds their life around it. It will affect what kind of experiences they have, how they interpret their origins, and, what they dislike. It’s so hard to say what has an exact effect on how someone identifies themselves. Because someone could just choose to disengage with a massive part of their identity like how they hate their origin, but is that really disengaging from that part of their identity or increasing how much of their identity that is define by it?

 

Ok so, what do identities do for us. Well, I said previously I think they anchor us to the world. It’s a survival strategy essentially. If we have a fear of losing ourselves it makes us more invested in our lives. It gives us a reason to feel emotions and to change things. So, we have this cumulative process of building on ourselves by which we can extrapolate purpose. Were able to be more than we’re supposed to be because in all honesty nature just wants us to be reproducers and if that’s all we were with conscious minds. We would just kill ourselves in all likelihood.

 

Identities matter because they’re more than the sum of their parts. They’re not just random tidbits about someone or accidental coincidences growing up. We are our identities and they drive us for better or for worse. They push us to see more, they push us to do more, and, they push us to feel more.

Free write activity

Ryan DeLuca

I typed everything that came to my mind.

After reading the story about toast I feel like I have a better understanding of what consists of one’s identity. I feel your identity is created by your actions, they may not be intentional but your actions have a role in how you create or how someone may create your identity. In the toast story there is a woman named Ginuietta Carrelli, she had been diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder seems to be difficult to deal with but Carrelli strong will to change her self-image from a maniac to a trust worth hardworking business woman is a powerful story to tell. Her story about being kicked to the curb by multiple employers and landlords because they didn’t understand her disorder really makes you lose faith in today’s society. Until she starts talking about how she talked to an old man who sun bathed in the sun every day in the same spot, she started talking to him more after she moved back from college and the small conversations they had made a big difference in Carrelli’s health. She had been drinking and was self-medicated at the time and wanted to improve herself and re-shape her image. So she started making connections and started talking to more people on that same beach. Carrelli was homeless and was found sleeping on the floor of the coffee shop she was currently working at, the coffee shop owner recommended to Carrelli that she is ready to open her own coffee shop, so she started talking to people around the china beach area, she had talked to the old man that sunbathed in the same spot everyday and he encouraged her to follow her dream of opening a coffee shop, so she went to the city and asked for advise on opening a small business and borrowed some money to purchase and renovate a small building that she wouls turn into a coffee shop and name “Trouble”. I like her store name and menu because it has meaning behind it. The word “Trouble” she came up with because of the people that helped her when she was in “Trouble”. Her menu items seem peculiar but have meaning behind them as well. She serves coconuts, fresh squeezed grapefruit juice that she named yoko because of the high source of vitamin C, the toast on her menu represents comfort, toast represents comfort because it reminds her of home because her mom used to make her for her as a kid. Her coffee represents communication and speed because when you drink coffee your brains speed increases and you have better communication. The coconuts on her menu represent survival because this is what she lived off of when he was having a hard time with money, she lived off of grapefruit juice and coconuts for about three years. Carrelli made her shop her identity she shaped the way people look at her and what people think of her, she made her coffee shop part of her life story and her hardship she had before she managed to pull herself out of her bad situation. This is a great example of how you shape your identity, she is now known as a strong independent woman who despite her disorder pulled herself out of a hole and started filling it in.

I can’t relate to pulling myself out of a situation like Carrelli’s but I can relate to shaping how and what people think of me. When I was a sophomore in Highschool someone made a comment on my clothes, my regular wardrobe at the time was a comfortable I usually wore baggy clothes that looked to big on me, and at the time I was almost two hundred pounds, I didn’t particularly like the clothes I wore they weren’t really my style, ive tried on clothes that are more my style but they just didn’t fit comfortably. With my weight I became self-conscious about what other people thought the clothes that I didn’t particularly like but didn’t really put that much thought into it. I really wanted to lose weight because I didn’t like how big I was, and I wanted to be able to dress in my style of clothes and fit comfortably in them in order to do that I had to drop drop a letter size and 3 inches around my waist. It felt easy because I was tired of looking at the scale and seeing 198 and wearing clothes that I didn’t feel confident in. So I started going to the gym with my dad. Now I am a junior in highschool and I didn’t see the results I was hoping for, I gained muscle mass but didn’t drop much weight I now weight 190. With my newly acquired license I started getting to the gym two hours earlier than my dad to do some running on the tread mill. I did two hours of running three days a week as well as stopped eating the very unhealthy school lunch that was also over-priced, my diet mostly consisted of eating less of what I was already eating while adding in some healthier alternatives such as fruit and yogurt I also cut soft drinks entirely and as soon as I didn’t that combined with the two hours of cardio three days a week the weight melted off, I dropped 25 pounds in 4 month and still had some more body fat to loose. At this point I am happy with my self and am starting to feel like I am becoming myself, but I didn’t fit into my old clothes so I had to go out and purchase a whole new wardrobe, with the new wardrobe I wanted to dress in clothes that fit right and also felt right, my style is cheaply expensive, this style consisted of brands that were thought to be high- end and premium but were actually half price and name brand. You can be on a budget and still get high end clothes you just gotta know where to look. My new outfits would spark conversations with class mates, they would ask how much I paid for that particular piece of clothing and would be shocked at how cheap I got it for. There was this one kid that I got the same shit as and he came up to me and said that I had a nice shirt while wearing that same shirt and I returned the gesture and asked where he got his and he said the brands outlet store and I would gasp and say that I got the same shirt for half price at an off-price retail store (T.J Maxx), not only did me being myself spark conversations with other people who also like clothes it helped me gain the body confidence I was lacking. My new style seemed to help me look easier to approach, once people approached me they found that I was fairly easy to talk to and very down to earth. My whole Identity changed when I lost the weight I was eager to lose and wore the clothes I felt like myself.